mtadkins

“This is our story, simplified: Life. Loss. Transformation. Love. Death. Iteration.”

Wonderful writing in “We Will Teach You How to Read We Will Teach You How to Read” by Caroline M. Yoachim

“…hopefully as you transform our words, you will keep some sense of the vastness of each moment, the illusion of holding more story in your mind than you are actually capable of holding.”

~ xoxo, m

Sometimes, I still need you.

‘xx day’ … Ah, another day on the calendar that stirs the memories.

I’ve made so few posts here (sigh…maybe for the best… perhaps not?) that anyone giving a quick glance at the prior entries will see these annual items & know the story of them having been my #MostFaveBandEVAR for a dozen years now. Its odd to realize the differences between my life then & to now… the people & things lost somehow loom larger than what’s been gained, & the xx music has so much longing in it — something I know resonated deeply with me upon first listen & still works its magic.

Its been pretty quiet on the site here, as I’ve pulled back from the constant social media posting of years past to dwell instead on personal things, but I think (fingers crossed) that might change this year, as I’ve been re-focused on completing some of those long-simmering projects & conquering my deep, oh-so-deep sense of inertia. More on all of that later…

I moved to Hawaii in Oct’22. Its pretty great, but as a tiny island in the Pacific that’s far, far away from everything, its *ahem* isolated as far as live music goes. Not a decent concert for me from a favorite band in all the time since the move, which is quite a downgrade. I have, however, self-promised to fly over to the mainland when necessary, & by most accounts it seems that the xx are working on new tunes, surely with a tour coming soon after. Also, btw, Romy’s LP was a banger. Loved it.

The last year's top listens, according to last.fm

Another year gone, but at least I heard music.

moar later, babies, xoxoxo ~ m

No Tech for Apartheid

“…TIME, which noted that over 13,000 children had been killed by Israeli attacks on Gaza since the beginning of the war; that Israel had fired upon Palestinians attempting to reach humanitarian aid shipments; and had fired upon convoys of evacuating refugees.” — “Google Workers Revolt Over $1.2 Billion Contract With Israel”

TGIF

Friday vibes with some Sade.

Look out! Its only ‘xx Day’!

Bringing 'Our Song' to my office wall.
Matt’s totally rad office decor.

From 4/26/2012 (my first hearing) til now, #1 on the chart…

Last.fm scrobble chart from the last 365 days
Last.fm stats for the last year

It’s been a busy year, as we moved the family from PDX to an island paradise, & I’ve had old worries & tasks replaced by new projects, but even still there’s a moment every day — at least once, sometimes more — when a wistful shiver passes thru me, like a memory of past wants bubbling up to remind you what it feels like to need something. To miss something. How else do we stay human? Nothing soundtracks that feeling for me like the xx.

Always & forever, babies. #F3